Yesterday was my darling sister, Deborah's birthday. She is one of my most bestest friends as well as a sister which is such a blessing. She and I talk all the time about random things, funny things, frustrating thing, things that hurt us and things that just about tore our souls apart. She's helped me put myself together several times, she helped me through one of the most agonizingly painful times in my life even though she was going through her own trials. She has shared fears and dreams, hopes and sorrows with me and I with her.
We have 27 years of incredible memories and we have forever to make more!
I simply can not imagine my life with out my sister (aka didder) and I am so very thankful Heavenly Father let us be together in our family.
I love you Deborah! Happy Birthday!
Friday, July 29, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Quote
Last month I heard a talk and a quote stuck out at me and I absolutely loved it! I quickly jotted it down in my phone. I think upon it every once in a while but thought I would share it with the rest of you...
The gal who was giving a the talk did not have the origin of this quote so I, unfortunately, do not know who to give credit to. But I hope you find it just as much of a ponder and remembrance as I do. :)
Teach the Gospel at all times, and if necessary use words.
What more can you say? Honestly! don't you just love it? I do.
The gal who was giving a the talk did not have the origin of this quote so I, unfortunately, do not know who to give credit to. But I hope you find it just as much of a ponder and remembrance as I do. :)
Teach the Gospel at all times, and if necessary use words.
What more can you say? Honestly! don't you just love it? I do.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Didn't we just do this?...
I could have sworn that just yesterday I was sending my little duckies off to kinder garden, but seems time has waved his all to fast hand again because yesterday I watched them climb on the big yellow bus, off to their first day of 1st grade. 1st grade! can you believe it?! Its just simply craziness!
After school they got on another bus that took them to the boys an girls club where I picked them up and then off to swim lessons. They had 'one of the best days ever' as they put it. :) today we did it all again. I drop them off at my moms house and she watches them off to the bus... *side note: I have one of the greatest moms in the world! just FYI....of course anyone who has met her knows that. :P *
I hope they learn lots this year and still have an appreciation/earning for school. My wish is that they keep that and are able to keep up and even excel in school, no matter what subject turns out to be their best.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
so I've been asked a few times for various pictures of me. I sometimes have a hard time posting pics of me, because although I have worked super hard to bring my weight down, it still surprises me to see that I'm not where I want to be...and of course being preggers, its just piling back on again. Its an inner struggle that I fight everyday and don't think it will end. But we all have our struggles...this is one of mine.
so here be some pictures of me. The first one my adorable husband took for me. I asked him if it looked ok after he took it, he walked over, put his arms around me kissed me and said...its a picture of you, its better then ok. Insert grin and blushing. :) yes, he still makes me blush.
The second picture is of me just yesterday. I was walking pass the mirror and realized my tummy looked more baby then pudgy so decided it would be a good photo opp. :)
So there you have it. I'm sure I will post more when I feel more comfortable with it....or the demand keeps up. :)
p.s. sorry they are so small. I took them with my phone.
so here be some pictures of me. The first one my adorable husband took for me. I asked him if it looked ok after he took it, he walked over, put his arms around me kissed me and said...its a picture of you, its better then ok. Insert grin and blushing. :) yes, he still makes me blush.
The second picture is of me just yesterday. I was walking pass the mirror and realized my tummy looked more baby then pudgy so decided it would be a good photo opp. :)
So there you have it. I'm sure I will post more when I feel more comfortable with it....or the demand keeps up. :)p.s. sorry they are so small. I took them with my phone.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Personalities
My three girls have way different personalities. Juliet likes to be boss and in the lime light but can be shy when first introduced into something. Bethanie is soft spoken, a people watcher and likes to do what her sisters are doing. Breana takes things on full force with out trepidation or shyness and will pretty much do anything you suggest will be fun. And they all love or dislike each other at various points in the day with equalness which can make my head spin since one minute they are getting along and the next they are ganging up on one or the other and being of the same age....I can only imagine the dynamics are going to get more interesting and "fun" to watch.
(Side note: Juliet picks a different career every day. Monday she wanted to be a construction worker cause they get to use the outside potties, Last week she wanted to be an astronaut because there is a possibility of running into an alien. hehe)
The following conversation happened in our car on our daily commute to Carson:
Juliet: I want to be a teeth doctor
Me: those are called Dentists
Juliet: I want to be a Dentist
Breana: not me I want to be a teacher (she folds her arms and turns her head...just to make sure they knew she was most definitely picking something different)
Bethanie: Well I want to be a Dentist too
Breana and Juliet look at Bethanie like how is that going to work, cause heaven forbid two of them pick the same thing to be when they grow up...when Juliet gets an 'aw-ha' look on her face.
Juliet: Then you can just come work in my shop!
Bethanie: uuuuuuuummmm......ok. (with a big smile)
hmmmm........I giggled to myself and let them work out the details of this venture they were going to create. That conversation totally displayed all of their personalities. It was kinda fun to watch.
(Side note: Juliet picks a different career every day. Monday she wanted to be a construction worker cause they get to use the outside potties, Last week she wanted to be an astronaut because there is a possibility of running into an alien. hehe)
The following conversation happened in our car on our daily commute to Carson:
Juliet: I want to be a teeth doctor
Me: those are called Dentists
Juliet: I want to be a Dentist
Breana: not me I want to be a teacher (she folds her arms and turns her head...just to make sure they knew she was most definitely picking something different)
Bethanie: Well I want to be a Dentist too
Breana and Juliet look at Bethanie like how is that going to work, cause heaven forbid two of them pick the same thing to be when they grow up...when Juliet gets an 'aw-ha' look on her face.
Juliet: Then you can just come work in my shop!
Bethanie: uuuuuuuummmm......ok. (with a big smile)
hmmmm........I giggled to myself and let them work out the details of this venture they were going to create. That conversation totally displayed all of their personalities. It was kinda fun to watch.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
So tired
I'm so tired of people getting mad about stupid little things. Especially stupid little things that could have been explained if only asked. But no they would rather hear what they hear, then blow the situation up in their heads a billion times more then it should have been. And then it takes them weeks to 'get over it'.
I recently had this situation happen with two people and can I tell you.... I'm tired of it! Stop thinking you know what is going on and ask the dang person who supposedly offended you. If I did then I need to know and you need to know how and why this offense came up in the first place, I need the opportunity to correct my error and apologise. But deciding to stop talking to someone with out any reason or very little reason......is just a cowardly way to do things.
No one likes confrontation, that's understandable but when you have relationships that have lasted years! YEARS!! and this is how you handle that, well I just have no words.
I hope these people can come around and tell me how I have offended them so badly, or even if it was a friend or family member of mine who offended and I'm caught in by proxy. Either way tell me or those people...so we can get pass this and stop playing these stupid little games!
I recently had this situation happen with two people and can I tell you.... I'm tired of it! Stop thinking you know what is going on and ask the dang person who supposedly offended you. If I did then I need to know and you need to know how and why this offense came up in the first place, I need the opportunity to correct my error and apologise. But deciding to stop talking to someone with out any reason or very little reason......is just a cowardly way to do things.
No one likes confrontation, that's understandable but when you have relationships that have lasted years! YEARS!! and this is how you handle that, well I just have no words.
I hope these people can come around and tell me how I have offended them so badly, or even if it was a friend or family member of mine who offended and I'm caught in by proxy. Either way tell me or those people...so we can get pass this and stop playing these stupid little games!
Friday, July 8, 2011
The Edge
With so many changes going on lately and me being overly emotional...it was bound to happen....me tipping over the edge. Most of the changes have been wonderful, but they are still changes and I've been on the edge for a bit now. Most of the time it came out in bits of anger or annoyance which I would later have to apologize for. Last night it came with a vengeance but this time with tears.
The girls were on their hundredth fight of the day, dinner was about done and Brian was trying to help but couldn't find what he needed and then questioned why I put certain things where in the kitchen, my hips hurt, by eyes were tired and my head had a billion things I still needed to get done that night swirling around. And then it came.....that one tear.
It was like I didn't' even notice that first one till I touched the tickle on my cheek and realised there was something wet on my face....I followed it up to the likely place of origin and found both my eyes wet...not just wet, soaking and the hot tears literally spilling over. My throat began to ache my nose ran and my eyes leaked...a lot. I went upstairs let some out then washed my face. went back downstairs, tried to eat dinner with the family, but they still came, those tears you just can not hide. The family was silent. They knew something was wrong but who knew what? its not like something dramatic had happened in the last half hour!
I excused myself, went upstairs, laid down and cried. I cried like I haven't cried since I was going through my divorce. I wet my pillow...turned it around and cried some more. I was sobbing so hard I could hardly breath. I pleaded with my Heavenly Father to not let the feelings that were bubbling up inside to last very long. I know this will sound horrible but this is how I felt last night. I just did not want to be there. I didn't want to be a mother, I didn't want to be a wife, I didn't want to have to deal with dinner, laundry or dishes. I didn't want to have to hear whining or complaining. I didn't' want to have to think 12 steps ahead so everyone would be taken care of through out the day tomorrow. I didn't want my body to hurt or feel huge anymore. I was tired of being tired, I was tired of working with little to no thank you and I was tired of holding it all in. So I let it out. I told Heavenly Father all of those feelings and I cried and said I was sorry for feeling them.
But then I felt very loved and my mind was washed with visions of my kids hugging me, my hubby and I laughing about something completely silly, our family walks or movie time. The girls being excited to see me when I pick them up from school. Our wedding day. The day we moved into our house and Brian and I looked at each other with a proud this is ours look. My family at dinners. My sister and I sharing conversations through out the day and laughing at things our kids had done.
I fell asleep that way and woke up still in my dress I had fallen asleep in. Brian had finished up dinner, done the dishes and put the girls to bed. I didn't hear a thing. I woke up feeling much better. I"m still emotional and tired but don't feel so overwhelmed and so on the edge. Sometimes it just needs to come out!
The girls were on their hundredth fight of the day, dinner was about done and Brian was trying to help but couldn't find what he needed and then questioned why I put certain things where in the kitchen, my hips hurt, by eyes were tired and my head had a billion things I still needed to get done that night swirling around. And then it came.....that one tear.
It was like I didn't' even notice that first one till I touched the tickle on my cheek and realised there was something wet on my face....I followed it up to the likely place of origin and found both my eyes wet...not just wet, soaking and the hot tears literally spilling over. My throat began to ache my nose ran and my eyes leaked...a lot. I went upstairs let some out then washed my face. went back downstairs, tried to eat dinner with the family, but they still came, those tears you just can not hide. The family was silent. They knew something was wrong but who knew what? its not like something dramatic had happened in the last half hour!
I excused myself, went upstairs, laid down and cried. I cried like I haven't cried since I was going through my divorce. I wet my pillow...turned it around and cried some more. I was sobbing so hard I could hardly breath. I pleaded with my Heavenly Father to not let the feelings that were bubbling up inside to last very long. I know this will sound horrible but this is how I felt last night. I just did not want to be there. I didn't want to be a mother, I didn't want to be a wife, I didn't want to have to deal with dinner, laundry or dishes. I didn't want to have to hear whining or complaining. I didn't' want to have to think 12 steps ahead so everyone would be taken care of through out the day tomorrow. I didn't want my body to hurt or feel huge anymore. I was tired of being tired, I was tired of working with little to no thank you and I was tired of holding it all in. So I let it out. I told Heavenly Father all of those feelings and I cried and said I was sorry for feeling them.
But then I felt very loved and my mind was washed with visions of my kids hugging me, my hubby and I laughing about something completely silly, our family walks or movie time. The girls being excited to see me when I pick them up from school. Our wedding day. The day we moved into our house and Brian and I looked at each other with a proud this is ours look. My family at dinners. My sister and I sharing conversations through out the day and laughing at things our kids had done.
I fell asleep that way and woke up still in my dress I had fallen asleep in. Brian had finished up dinner, done the dishes and put the girls to bed. I didn't hear a thing. I woke up feeling much better. I"m still emotional and tired but don't feel so overwhelmed and so on the edge. Sometimes it just needs to come out!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Something Small.....Something Big
Most of you already know.....but we have exciting news!
Its great how something small.......
Can belong to something big.......and its ours!!!!!
That's right. Our family has bought a house. A lovely home that both Brian and I are so happy to own (well.....have our name on while we pay the bank for it). But for all intents and purposes its ours. Our kids will not have to move again, until they are up and out of the house. Its in the area of Reno we both wanted to live and in the school district I wanted my kids in!
The neighbor hood is great. Every time we are out side or driving by everyone smiles and waves. We have three doctors living as next door neighbors including a pediatrician. :D My kitchen is spectacular and the girls love thier rooms (I'm sure baby boy will too!). We have a modest backyard that is already landscaped. Once the saud is rooted and happy the girls will get to start playing back there! yay for mommy!!! haha.
We are still unpacking and getting everything settled but its jut fantastic and I'm sooo happy!
Its great how something small.......
Can belong to something big.......and its ours!!!!!That's right. Our family has bought a house. A lovely home that both Brian and I are so happy to own (well.....have our name on while we pay the bank for it). But for all intents and purposes its ours. Our kids will not have to move again, until they are up and out of the house. Its in the area of Reno we both wanted to live and in the school district I wanted my kids in!
The neighbor hood is great. Every time we are out side or driving by everyone smiles and waves. We have three doctors living as next door neighbors including a pediatrician. :D My kitchen is spectacular and the girls love thier rooms (I'm sure baby boy will too!). We have a modest backyard that is already landscaped. Once the saud is rooted and happy the girls will get to start playing back there! yay for mommy!!! haha.
We are still unpacking and getting everything settled but its jut fantastic and I'm sooo happy!
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