Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Whole 30.

I've been doing Whole 30...its been a journey and I keep a separate blog for it but I liked today's entry so I'm sharing it on this blog as well.

In Tune:

So whether you believe in God, earth elements, higher power...whatever it might be, its always a goal in life (at least in mine) to become closer to God. To be in tune with what he wants for me and what I can do for Him.

I have noticed that when I treat my body kindly, I become more in tune with nature, with everyday joys and miracles and with my God. I hear better, I see what He would like me to view in the world and am able to understand what an amazing gift I have been given. To have this body, imperfectly perfect as it is, to love it, to care for it and to enjoy it.

I speak with Him for freely, I enjoy his gift more whole and I appreciate everything more fully

You know what they say, when you love yourself, you can fully love other people, situations, things...life. Its true. I stop thinking about how I look, how others view me and what I have to do to survive the day in it. I start thinking of how the rain smells and sun feels, how great I feel and how I get to have another day in this body.

Going through the Whole 30 has been tough so far, and I'm sure its not over, but if this is one of the many benefits I get from it. Feeling in tune with myself, my life, my God. Then it has been well beyond worth it.

if you want to follow that blog its http://mypaleoandme.blogspot.com/

Monday, February 2, 2015

Lifes little pleasures

Do you know what I love about life, the little stuff. sure the big stuff is fabulous and what dreams are made from. But the little stuff is what keeps us whole, what makes us tick, what keeps us going. Here are a few of my life's little pleasures:

Running, feeling the air in my lungs, the burn in my legs, the momentum of my body. Just having me and my thoughts out there.

Chocolate, I love chocolate, adore it! its one of the things that I need in my life. I can't have to much of it because its so easy to let it get away from you but I'm going to have it always.

Reading, being able to fall in love with the characters, laughing with them, morning with them. I've actually gone into full blown depression when a character of mine is killed off, been angry when an injustice is done and sighed with happiness when they get what they want.

Music, music is the key to the soul. It can uplift you, mirror your anger or sorrow, amp you up or ground you.

Cute outfits. I haven't always been into fashion but once I discovered it, I fell in love. I love putting on an outfit and rocking the heck out of it...and knowing I do. :D

these are just a few of my little pleasures. I'm sure there is a billion more I could think of every day!

Monday, December 22, 2014

I'm back

Well hello there,

so I became an anti blogger for a bit, some emotional stuffs going on in my mind, soul and emotions and really I just didn't want to write things that might be regretful later. :) but I think I'm doing better now. ...not that I have that much to talk about or anything you might be interested in reading. I mean, no one has noticed I've been gone for a year...why come back to my lonely corner of cyber world now.

Juliet is growing up so fast I can barely keep up. every time I turn around she's grown an inch or I mistake her for a random teenager and my mind literally has to scream at me and say "no thats your daughter" I just love her to bits and of course am more and more terrified that I'm raising her incorrectly. that one day she will ask my why I didn't do better, why I couldn't have seen how much I was messing her up. Thats my biggest fear.

Dean is growing fast too. He's not so much my baby as my little spunky boy and I just love him to pieces. I couldn't have asked for a better son! He's funny as all get out!

They both make me want to get up in the morning, make me want to be a better person, make me want to try and terrify me to no end.   Parenting does that to you. You never understand the true understanding of full responsibility, terror and love then you do when you become a parent. You're whole worlds shifts and its terrifying and wonderful all at the same time.

Not sure why I picked that as my first 'come back' blog. I really didn't have an idea of what I was going to say. only that I wanted to blog again. It will come back to me. I hope anyway.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Anger Challenge

Hello all.

Today starts day 1 of a 30 day challenge to control my anger. I'm going to admit, on this public forum, that I have anger issues. Not just every once in a while angry. But ridiculous, blinding, hateful rages. To whom? well......some of you will know and some of you will not but its not fair to them that I say because honestly, this is my issue. Not theirs. Even though in the moments of anger....it is their fault. But that's the blinding part I was talking about.

I really don't have a solid plan, but to read up on anger management, try different techniques and to try desperately to get this under control.

So. first day - today, is to admit I have a problem. I huge problem that needs to be addressed. I will also say this is not going to be easy for me. In any way, shape or form. I am naturally angry, its in my nature. I don't plan to get rid of anger all together, but learn to control it, redirect it and use it to help and not hinder my life and the life of those around me.

This is my goal and hopefully writing it down and hopefully being held accountable for it will help me do this plan and goal.

.......lets hope.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Its been a while

So I clearly haven't been here for a long time. I have so many updates and I think thats what prevents me from coming....I just get a bit overwhelmed.

Where to start.
The twins got baptized and Juliet is about to this weekend (I will post pics of both next week).
Juliet will be turning 8 this sat and I can not believe where the time has gone....I mean really 8?!?!
Dean is doing wonderfully. He's cut his molors and is transitioning into the terrible two's (a bit early I might add) but he is still a goofball and loves to be the center of attention.
I got promoted to Family Service Specialist, it came with a slight paygrade and in a year it will come with another. I"m finally out of the Adminstartive Assistant series. But honestly I don't feel any different. I"m doing the same stuff...only getting paid for it now.
Brian's company had a mass lay off and thank goodness he was lucky and blessed enough not to be one of those people. We felt very blessed.

We are still loving our house (its getting very broken in - crayons on the walls and bangs in the doors) but thats what happens when you have kiddos. :) and I absolutely adore our ward! I'm getting to know more and more of the people and I can't tell you how much I love them and our area.

The girls finally learned how to ride a bike with out training wheels. Acutally Brian took them off so they could start practicing and they got on and rode around like they had been doing it all along. haha.   They will start going to Brown Elementary next year which is right around the corner from us so they can ride their bikes. they are very excited and I'm happy not to have to get them up so early anymore. I'm still trying to figure out if we want to move Dean to a Reno daycare or have him still come with me and stay in the day care that he knows and loves. We will see. Hopefully the state will move our office back to Reno like originally planned and then it won't be a problem.

That should be all the updates for now. I will make it a goal to come back and dialog here. If not for you, for me. :)

Monday, October 22, 2012


Can you believe its been one whole year?!?!

Dean, unfortunately, got to sit in the car from Vegas to Reno for his 1st birthday...poor thing. But I"m hoping when he gets older he'll be proud that his mama did a warrior dash after having had him a year before. I'm pretty proud of that if I do say so myself. More on that later.

We Stoped in Tonapah for lunch and they had a miniature bathroom on display...I couldn't resist.

Dean on the mini toilet. :D

Dean at the wash sing. He had so much fun turning those knobs....but doesn't he look like a little man. so freaking cute!

Dean in an air plane. :D

Some things Dean loves and doesn't love:

Bananas, hotdogs, fruit pouches, green beens, sandwiches, noodles, his doggie, playing with the remote
stealing glasses off mommy's face, biting (but he only bites me for some reason..very odd), anything electronic
playing with his sisters, laughing with daddy, taking off his socks, water, pushing the buttons to turn on or off the alarms/lights, closing doors, climbing stairs! making silly faces, making us laugh.

Doesn't love:
Sitting still, not being able to take naps in his bed, having his nose wiped, he does not like it when I make him sign to get or not get something, when his sisters go up to play and close the gate so he can't get upstairs, being told no (of course).

For the most part, Dean is a loving, funny, incredibly funny little guy. He has seven cute teeth, four on top and three on bottom. He does walk, but he would rather do his bear crawl cause he can go faster. Everyone who meets him just loves him so much! I would agree. I cant' stand how much I love this little boy and thank God everyday that he let me have him!

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

1st day of school

1st day of school. :D

Yesterday was the first day of school, since the kids go on year around we get to start a tad earlier then everyone else. The girls were soooo excited to go back. They are still in that stage where they like school, hopefully it stays that way. Here are some pictures of mine and some of my little brothers and sisters too.

JadaLynn - Ready to head out with the big kids! She's so cute!

Gabriel soooo excited about class. This is is 'cheese' smile. I love it!

Eric going into third grade. That backpack is humangous! I don't remember them being that big!

Breana - I told her to pose and she did this thug pose. LOL cracks me up.
Every time I see this picture I start singing 'its a hard knock life' lyrics in my head.

Bethanie - I said smile like ten times and finally she said "mom I am!" .....oh. hehe

Juliet - So excited! of course she had to accessorize,
she had a flower in her hair and a shiny belt.....that's my girl.

All three - at least two of them looked enthused! LOL Bethanie swears she's smiling.

All of them - two things, one....that is Bethanie smiling and two...
do you totally love Deans photo bomb leg in the corner!?
 I can't believe they are growing up so fast. I never i a million years thought I would be sending off three kids to the same school year but that's the way life is. You think you have it figured out and then it throws you a curve ball. Its tiring, frustrating at times, but oh so interesting and super fun and definitely keeps me on my toes. :D