lets get to it. I have 3 and a half days until I get to see my hubby. I miss him so much I can't barely stand it. I got angry today because he is visiting his mom today, he got to visit her about two weeks ago and we are going to go visit her on our way to Disneyland next week. I found myself very jealous with the little devil me yelling in my ear about how unfair it is that she would get to see him so many times while I'm over here so terribly lonely sometimes I cry myself to sleep....but then I calmed down and heard the little angel me whisper but she only gets to see him once every few years so let her have her time. its still a hard pill to swallow! I'm deeply grateful that Jason has a job and that he is doing well in it but I hate that he has to be away from us and I hate how I have to carry the burden of being both parents while he's gone. I'm sure he doesn't' like feeling like a visitor in his own home or not being able to see Juliet's face everyday (which sometimes is the ONLY thing that gets me through the day!)...but still that's how I feel and its hard for me to calm down and see the good in it. But I must so I do.
Now some more good... we only have 5 and half days until we hit Disneyland! I love it there and the whole family is going. I'm soo excited! its is going to be Juliet, Eric and Tyler's first time there and I can't wait to see how they like it. I can't wait for the smells and familiar shops to visit, the waits in line and the rides that are soo worth it. The hot afternoons and fun cool evenings. I can't wait for the 'I'm so tired I can't possibly go anymore....but have to for the sake of Disneyland' mode, the churros and overpriced candy, the characters and photo ops, the new things and the nostalgic, the fun and the fatigue, the absolute wash of spending three days not worrying about life outside the magic kingdom. No bills, or work, no friends issues or car troubles, no schedule to keep or dishes to do....just three days of pure, exhausting fun!
I'm soo excited!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Jackie and Debra
Ok so my good friend Crystal introduced me to this funny Youtube video.....this guy freaking cracks me up!!!! He is basically making fun of how girls have a love/hate relationship with each other and how they fight.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IpqurhjP98
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Z3Ta9NC510
Here are two of his videos. You are going to pee your pants. I almost did!
Have fun and enjoy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4IpqurhjP98
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Z3Ta9NC510
Here are two of his videos. You are going to pee your pants. I almost did!
Have fun and enjoy.
Friday, February 20, 2009
My sister tagged me, so here we go. Just a few interesting things you might or might not have known about me. :) Enjoy
1) I have: only two more weeks until I see Jason and go to Disneyland with the fam…oh happy days!
2) My greatest desire in life: is to start a cake deco business.
3) When I was a kid I was obsessed with: He-man and spiders. Not so much anymore thank you.
4) My arms: are the size of my head…seriously I think I can almost fly with these wings. Haha. But I’m working on them.
5) I believe: people are bound to make some big and small mistakes but they could really save themselves some heartache and trouble if they would watch and listen to those around them.
6) Three years ago I: was getting ready for Juliet’s 1st Birthday. Man how the time flies!
7) One of my all time favorite movies: Hairspray the remake. I love the songs and the dancing and the overall message. Of course I love Romeo and Juliet (all versions).
8) I'm obsessed with: Making cakes. It’s a sickness. :) and getting my weight down! Um…does anyone else see the oxymoron?
9) I would love to: Be financially happy. We are stable now……close to the brink, but can pay our bills. I would love to have some savings or something!
10) When I was a kid I wanted to grow up to be: an actress, I’ve always loved the movies and Broadway. For years I dreamed of it. Occasionally still do, but I have too much responsibility now and I don’t think the talent was ever there.
11) I am: Hopeful…well today anyway, that one of these days one of my dreams will come true.
12) I have been: working really hard at making my cakes.
13) Last night I: Went to a cake deco class and was very pleased with my work. I can really do this!
14) If I were ambitious: I’d be an actress. :)
15) I love: My family….my sibs and parents and all who are attached to them. I love my family, Jason and Juliet and whoever might come next, if any. I love that no matter what we will always be together and love each other...and to have that comfort and that knowledge gets me through a lot!
16) I read books like: I breathe. It’s a constant in my life. To see someone who can not read is like the biggest tragedy I believe there can be. It makes me sad and grateful for the chances I have and can have because of it.
17) I love to: laugh! Its one of my favorite things in this world. It doesn’t cost any money, you can take it anywhere, you don’t even have to have anything to trigger it…..just do it and your mood will get ten times better.
18) I hate: ignorance…but I think we all have times or things we are ignorant about. I think I hate when someone has been shown the correct way or thing and they still hold fast to their stupidity and ignorance…what a waste!
19) I blush a lot and it kind of drives me crazy. <- I’m with you. I do to and it makes for some awkward situations!
20) I don't like: know it alls….they drive me nuts and make my head hurt from all the eye rolling I do around them!
21) I've worked at: a gas station, the Disney Store (my favorite), a maternity clothing store, United Blood Services and the state of Nevada (with in the state I have worked as a phone operator, records clerk, and an administrative assistant in two departments)
22) I was born: in Alaska, I remember some of it and miss it on occasion.
23) I'll be: in Disneyland in TWO WEEKS!!! Yay!! <- me too! See you there!
24) I am addicted: water, supernatural, Jason and Juliet, cakes and exercising!
25) I have: a very strong will (border line obstructive) and a love for my family that could move mountains if need be.
Now I'm tagging anyone who reads my blog (Deborah's already done it. :) ). come on its fun and it gives you something to post!
Have fun!
1) I have: only two more weeks until I see Jason and go to Disneyland with the fam…oh happy days!
2) My greatest desire in life: is to start a cake deco business.
3) When I was a kid I was obsessed with: He-man and spiders. Not so much anymore thank you.
4) My arms: are the size of my head…seriously I think I can almost fly with these wings. Haha. But I’m working on them.
5) I believe: people are bound to make some big and small mistakes but they could really save themselves some heartache and trouble if they would watch and listen to those around them.
6) Three years ago I: was getting ready for Juliet’s 1st Birthday. Man how the time flies!
7) One of my all time favorite movies: Hairspray the remake. I love the songs and the dancing and the overall message. Of course I love Romeo and Juliet (all versions).
8) I'm obsessed with: Making cakes. It’s a sickness. :) and getting my weight down! Um…does anyone else see the oxymoron?
9) I would love to: Be financially happy. We are stable now……close to the brink, but can pay our bills. I would love to have some savings or something!
10) When I was a kid I wanted to grow up to be: an actress, I’ve always loved the movies and Broadway. For years I dreamed of it. Occasionally still do, but I have too much responsibility now and I don’t think the talent was ever there.
11) I am: Hopeful…well today anyway, that one of these days one of my dreams will come true.
12) I have been: working really hard at making my cakes.
13) Last night I: Went to a cake deco class and was very pleased with my work. I can really do this!
14) If I were ambitious: I’d be an actress. :)
15) I love: My family….my sibs and parents and all who are attached to them. I love my family, Jason and Juliet and whoever might come next, if any. I love that no matter what we will always be together and love each other...and to have that comfort and that knowledge gets me through a lot!
16) I read books like: I breathe. It’s a constant in my life. To see someone who can not read is like the biggest tragedy I believe there can be. It makes me sad and grateful for the chances I have and can have because of it.
17) I love to: laugh! Its one of my favorite things in this world. It doesn’t cost any money, you can take it anywhere, you don’t even have to have anything to trigger it…..just do it and your mood will get ten times better.
18) I hate: ignorance…but I think we all have times or things we are ignorant about. I think I hate when someone has been shown the correct way or thing and they still hold fast to their stupidity and ignorance…what a waste!
19) I blush a lot and it kind of drives me crazy. <- I’m with you. I do to and it makes for some awkward situations!
20) I don't like: know it alls….they drive me nuts and make my head hurt from all the eye rolling I do around them!
21) I've worked at: a gas station, the Disney Store (my favorite), a maternity clothing store, United Blood Services and the state of Nevada (with in the state I have worked as a phone operator, records clerk, and an administrative assistant in two departments)
22) I was born: in Alaska, I remember some of it and miss it on occasion.
23) I'll be: in Disneyland in TWO WEEKS!!! Yay!! <- me too! See you there!
24) I am addicted: water, supernatural, Jason and Juliet, cakes and exercising!
25) I have: a very strong will (border line obstructive) and a love for my family that could move mountains if need be.
Now I'm tagging anyone who reads my blog (Deborah's already done it. :) ). come on its fun and it gives you something to post!
Have fun!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Banana Splits and Cookie Dough
I'm at that stage in my diet where my body is starting to forget or get used to the fact that it doesn't get junk and sweets everyday. So what does it do, what any dying thing does....it fights! And boy does it fight dirty! All day yesterday anytime I would think about something it would tie back into food! Seriously! and not just any food the good stuff, greasy burgers, cheesy macaroni, banana splits and cookie dough. ( you know how people say 'oh that cookie is calling my name' really it was calling me. Imagine the looks I got in the break room when I told the cookie to shut its trap and leave me alone!)
I went home and my sister was nice enough to buy us dinner. I had gone to the store and got all the mixing for a spinach salad, I had red onion, zucchini, cucumber, tomato and low fat blue cheese dressing I was going to top it with some tuna and was feeling pretty good about it, but then I walk into the house with the assault of the best smelling thing ever (Sidebar: ever notice when you are super hungry or dieting things that are not so great for you smell 80 times better?) it was gooey pizza, garlic and butter infused bread sticks with marinara sauce and of course the bubbly (soda). I just about fell over. I was so light headed I couldn't tell if it was ringing in my ears because the oxygen had left my body or if the heavens had opened up and the angels were singing this sinful meal praise! either way it took me a few seconds to recover myself.
I did eat it, I ate two small slices and one bread stick. The salad is in the fridge ready to be eaten tonight or tomorrow. So yes I fell, but not to hard. Thank goodness. And in two weeks we are going to Disneyland, land of yummy churro's and grilled goodness, sweets of all kinds and the inability to say no to them. :) however we will be walking all day so hopefully that evens it out. Till then I need to keep my guard up cause you never know what will hit next!
I went home and my sister was nice enough to buy us dinner. I had gone to the store and got all the mixing for a spinach salad, I had red onion, zucchini, cucumber, tomato and low fat blue cheese dressing I was going to top it with some tuna and was feeling pretty good about it, but then I walk into the house with the assault of the best smelling thing ever (Sidebar: ever notice when you are super hungry or dieting things that are not so great for you smell 80 times better?) it was gooey pizza, garlic and butter infused bread sticks with marinara sauce and of course the bubbly (soda). I just about fell over. I was so light headed I couldn't tell if it was ringing in my ears because the oxygen had left my body or if the heavens had opened up and the angels were singing this sinful meal praise! either way it took me a few seconds to recover myself.
I did eat it, I ate two small slices and one bread stick. The salad is in the fridge ready to be eaten tonight or tomorrow. So yes I fell, but not to hard. Thank goodness. And in two weeks we are going to Disneyland, land of yummy churro's and grilled goodness, sweets of all kinds and the inability to say no to them. :) however we will be walking all day so hopefully that evens it out. Till then I need to keep my guard up cause you never know what will hit next!
Friday, February 13, 2009
Comforting? Really?
Yesterday I visited an old friend. I hadn't seen this friend in a good 4 months. This friend used to be my enemy. I used to complain going to see him and I couldn't wait to get away, but as time passed and I got used to his routine and his ability to change who I am, I became to not only rely on this friend but truly enjoy him.
I moved houses and jobs, Juliet started school and I started taking night classes...needless to say this friend got pushed to the bottom of the to do list and I didn't' visit him!.
Yesterday I did. I made time to visit. He's been calling and I've been ignoring. I couldn't ignore anymore.
I walked in and his smell was like a homecoming, the work he put me too was invigorating. I was able to relax my mind and really get some thinking done while working my body in mindless steps. The sound of him was like a warm blanket, comforting and needed. My muscles warmed up, my heart worked and yes, I sweated. He does that to me all to often. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I wish he wouldn't...but yesterday I was glad that he did. I missed him and what he does for me!
who is this friend you ask...you probably already figured it out. Its my gym, yes the gym. I missed going and plan on going again tonight. I miss having that solid hour of just me and the machine. No talking, no trying to one up anyone but me, no trying to impress, no thinking I'm not good enough. Feeling the instant working of my muscles, heart and lungs is fantastic. When I'm done I know I've done something completely and totally good for myself and can feel the effects for hours and even into the next day. I love it and don't know why I ignored him for so long. There is really no excuse for not going and I am glad I finally made time to do it!
I moved houses and jobs, Juliet started school and I started taking night classes...needless to say this friend got pushed to the bottom of the to do list and I didn't' visit him!.
Yesterday I did. I made time to visit. He's been calling and I've been ignoring. I couldn't ignore anymore.
I walked in and his smell was like a homecoming, the work he put me too was invigorating. I was able to relax my mind and really get some thinking done while working my body in mindless steps. The sound of him was like a warm blanket, comforting and needed. My muscles warmed up, my heart worked and yes, I sweated. He does that to me all to often. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I wish he wouldn't...but yesterday I was glad that he did. I missed him and what he does for me!
who is this friend you ask...you probably already figured it out. Its my gym, yes the gym. I missed going and plan on going again tonight. I miss having that solid hour of just me and the machine. No talking, no trying to one up anyone but me, no trying to impress, no thinking I'm not good enough. Feeling the instant working of my muscles, heart and lungs is fantastic. When I'm done I know I've done something completely and totally good for myself and can feel the effects for hours and even into the next day. I love it and don't know why I ignored him for so long. There is really no excuse for not going and I am glad I finally made time to do it!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Presidents Challenge
Deborah sent me a link to a cool website to join the presidents weight loss challenge...I guess this is something that happens every year. I didn't know that but it could be fun. More of an incentive to get me up and doing it. So that is exciting....because frankly I'm tired of being a heffer. And no, I know I'm not humongous or ridiculously obese but I am big and need to get it in control.
Anyway, the website is awesome you can put in your info and it tracks your progress for you. course this is on the honor system so you could say you did way better then you did but that would just come back to bite you in your big hunesky. :) I'm excited to get started and glad Deborah sent me the link.
here it is if you want to join. More the merrier or just for your own self. Have fun.
http://petitelefant.blogspot.com/2009/02/fitness-challenge-how-to.html
follow the instruction off this blog and not only will you be in the pres challenge you could also win awesome prizes.
hope you join. :)
Anyway, the website is awesome you can put in your info and it tracks your progress for you. course this is on the honor system so you could say you did way better then you did but that would just come back to bite you in your big hunesky. :) I'm excited to get started and glad Deborah sent me the link.
here it is if you want to join. More the merrier or just for your own self. Have fun.
http://petitelefant.blogspot.com/2009/02/fitness-challenge-how-to.html
follow the instruction off this blog and not only will you be in the pres challenge you could also win awesome prizes.
hope you join. :)
Thursday, February 5, 2009
What the heck?
I still can't figure out if I think this guy is really awesome or really stupid...either way he's really crazy!
http://failblog.org/2008/08/11/safety-fail-3/
I would most definitely say don't try this!
http://failblog.org/2008/08/11/safety-fail-3/
I would most definitely say don't try this!
What the heck?
Ok I still can't figure out if I think this guy is really cool or really stupid. Probably both but either way he's crazy!!!!
Whoo look at me....
Ever notice how some outfits are totally figure flattering, I mean not just oh thats cute but to the point where you catch your reflection in the mirror or window you stop and think dang who's that hottie....oh its me. and then some days you catch yourself and you wonder why there are little things orbiting your middrift only to figure out they are planets because your so big you have your own gravitational pull.
today is one of those days where I look cute. I have on a flair skirt and a navy blue shirt that I bought because it promised to be flattering. I actually got a couple of comments today from people asking me of I have lost weight. why yes yes I have. I actually have no idea if I have or not but if they are going to think it then I'm ganna agree with them. I mean who in their right mind says um nope still a piggy with a big butt I just happen to hit the outfit lotto today. Of course tomorrow when I am back in reality and my magic is gone, my outfit unflattering and my butt protruding to the point of needing is own zip code, they will either think I was lying, they are going crazy or I have magic abilities to make myself skinny but disappear at the stroke of 9pm when the sugar monster appears. Either way I look good today and I'm ganna use it for all its worth. Or I can just wash and wear this outfit everyday....they might think I'm crazy for wearing the same outfit everyday but hey I would look good! ;)
today is one of those days where I look cute. I have on a flair skirt and a navy blue shirt that I bought because it promised to be flattering. I actually got a couple of comments today from people asking me of I have lost weight. why yes yes I have. I actually have no idea if I have or not but if they are going to think it then I'm ganna agree with them. I mean who in their right mind says um nope still a piggy with a big butt I just happen to hit the outfit lotto today. Of course tomorrow when I am back in reality and my magic is gone, my outfit unflattering and my butt protruding to the point of needing is own zip code, they will either think I was lying, they are going crazy or I have magic abilities to make myself skinny but disappear at the stroke of 9pm when the sugar monster appears. Either way I look good today and I'm ganna use it for all its worth. Or I can just wash and wear this outfit everyday....they might think I'm crazy for wearing the same outfit everyday but hey I would look good! ;)
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Six Years
This time six years ago Jason and I were newly wed and at our honeymoon in none other then Disneyland. We were all starry eyed, lovey dovey and totally and completely in love with each other. What has changed? Well now we are completely head over heals in love with each other!
We have been through so much together. Some really bad downs, some soul searching fights and some mistakes that we both wish we could change but we have also been through some amazing ups! Juliet is the biggest of course, the strength we found in each other and the fact that sometimes one of us just simply needed to lean on the other and were able to without falling, we can make each other laugh and really there is nothing better then sitting there and having a complete conversation with the man you love with one look. Its one of those things you dream about as a kid and hope to have. Well I do and I'm grateful.
So here's to Six years to us babe and many more to come. I love you with all my heart and can't even begin to tell you how lucky and special I feel that we were allowed to find each other. Love you always!
We have been through so much together. Some really bad downs, some soul searching fights and some mistakes that we both wish we could change but we have also been through some amazing ups! Juliet is the biggest of course, the strength we found in each other and the fact that sometimes one of us just simply needed to lean on the other and were able to without falling, we can make each other laugh and really there is nothing better then sitting there and having a complete conversation with the man you love with one look. Its one of those things you dream about as a kid and hope to have. Well I do and I'm grateful.
So here's to Six years to us babe and many more to come. I love you with all my heart and can't even begin to tell you how lucky and special I feel that we were allowed to find each other. Love you always!
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