Anger Challenge

Hello all.

Today starts day 1 of a 30 day challenge to control my anger. I'm going to admit, on this public forum, that I have anger issues. Not just every once in a while angry. But ridiculous, blinding, hateful rages. To whom? well......some of you will know and some of you will not but its not fair to them that I say because honestly, this is my issue. Not theirs. Even though in the moments of anger....it is their fault. But that's the blinding part I was talking about.

I really don't have a solid plan, but to read up on anger management, try different techniques and to try desperately to get this under control.

So. first day - today, is to admit I have a problem. I huge problem that needs to be addressed. I will also say this is not going to be easy for me. In any way, shape or form. I am naturally angry, its in my nature. I don't plan to get rid of anger all together, but learn to control it, redirect it and use it to help and not hinder my life and the life of those around me.

This is my goal and hopefully writing it down and hopefully being held accountable for it will help me do this plan and goal.

.......lets hope.

Its been a while

So I clearly haven't been here for a long time. I have so many updates and I think thats what prevents me from coming....I just get a bit overwhelmed.

Where to start.
The twins got baptized and Juliet is about to this weekend (I will post pics of both next week).
Juliet will be turning 8 this sat and I can not believe where the time has gone....I mean really 8?!?!
Dean is doing wonderfully. He's cut his molors and is transitioning into the terrible two's (a bit early I might add) but he is still a goofball and loves to be the center of attention.
I got promoted to Family Service Specialist, it came with a slight paygrade and in a year it will come with another. I"m finally out of the Adminstartive Assistant series. But honestly I don't feel any different. I"m doing the same stuff...only getting paid for it now.
Brian's company had a mass lay off and thank goodness he was lucky and blessed enough not to be one of those people. We felt very blessed.

We are still loving our house (its getting very broken in - crayons on the walls and bangs in the doors) but thats what happens when you have kiddos. :) and I absolutely adore our ward! I'm getting to know more and more of the people and I can't tell you how much I love them and our area.

The girls finally learned how to ride a bike with out training wheels. Acutally Brian took them off so they could start practicing and they got on and rode around like they had been doing it all along. haha.   They will start going to Brown Elementary next year which is right around the corner from us so they can ride their bikes. they are very excited and I'm happy not to have to get them up so early anymore. I'm still trying to figure out if we want to move Dean to a Reno daycare or have him still come with me and stay in the day care that he knows and loves. We will see. Hopefully the state will move our office back to Reno like originally planned and then it won't be a problem.

That should be all the updates for now. I will make it a goal to come back and dialog here. If not for you, for me. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVEBUGS!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HANDSOME BOY!!!

Can you believe its been one whole year?!?!

Dean, unfortunately, got to sit in the car from Vegas to Reno for his 1st birthday...poor thing. But I"m hoping when he gets older he'll be proud that his mama did a warrior dash after having had him a year before. I'm pretty proud of that if I do say so myself. More on that later.

We Stoped in Tonapah for lunch and they had a miniature bathroom on display...I couldn't resist.

Dean on the mini toilet. :D

Dean at the wash sing. He had so much fun turning those knobs....but doesn't he look like a little man. so freaking cute!

Dean in an air plane. :D

Some things Dean loves and doesn't love:

Loves:

Bananas, hotdogs, fruit pouches, green beens, sandwiches, noodles, his doggie, playing with the remote

stealing glasses off mommy's face, biting (but he only bites me for some reason..very odd), anything electronic

playing with his sisters, laughing with daddy, taking off his socks, water, pushing the buttons to turn on or off the alarms/lights, closing doors, climbing stairs! making silly faces, making us laugh.

Doesn't love:

Sitting still, not being able to take naps in his bed, having his nose wiped, he does not like it when I make him sign to get or not get something, when his sisters go up to play and close the gate so he can't get upstairs, being told no (of course).

For the most part, Dean is a loving, funny, incredibly funny little guy. He has seven cute teeth, four on top and three on bottom. He does walk, but he would rather do his bear crawl cause he can go faster. Everyone who meets him just loves him so much! I would agree. I cant' stand how much I love this little boy and thank God everyday that he let me have him!

1st day of school

1st day of school. :D

Yesterday was the first day of school, since the kids go on year around we get to start a tad earlier then everyone else. The girls were soooo excited to go back. They are still in that stage where they like school, hopefully it stays that way. Here are some pictures of mine and some of my little brothers and sisters too.



JadaLynn - Ready to head out with the big kids! She's so cute!




Gabriel soooo excited about class. This is is 'cheese' smile. I love it!




Eric going into third grade. That backpack is humangous! I don't remember them being that big!




Breana - I told her to pose and she did this thug pose. LOL cracks me up.
Every time I see this picture I start singing 'its a hard knock life' lyrics in my head.




Bethanie - I said smile like ten times and finally she said "mom I am!" .....oh. hehe




Juliet - So excited! of course she had to accessorize,
she had a flower in her hair and a shiny belt.....that's my girl.




All three - at least two of them looked enthused! LOL Bethanie swears she's smiling.




All of them - two things, one....that is Bethanie smiling and two...
do you totally love Deans photo bomb leg in the corner!?

 I can't believe they are growing up so fast. I never i a million years thought I would be sending off three kids to the same school year but that's the way life is. You think you have it figured out and then it throws you a curve ball. Its tiring, frustrating at times, but oh so interesting and super fun and definitely keeps me on my toes. :D

Nine Months

Dean turned nine months on the 21st of July.

Can you believe its been NINE MONTHS?! He's such a cutie and he personality is outstanding!

I just can not get enough of this little boy!

I found him like this one morning a week or two back. I did the stand and stare to make sure he wasnt' dead. And can I tell you he was furious with me when I unwound him!



He is definitely my son. Although it really doesn't show, I am the healthy eater in the family. Look how he smiles while eating his broccoli. :D




This one cracked me up because he had it just hanging out of his mouth while looking around.




munchin on the broccoli.




Look at that face. How can you not adore that face?!




He's looking like such a big boy lately. Its both amazing and sad to me.

Dean loves to crawl around, he hardly ever goes on his knees but prefers to 'bear crawl' which is walking on his feet and hands. Its so funny. I'll have to post a video of it soon. He also taken to standing on his own for a few seconds at a time. at first he was using other things to get up but yesterday he pushed himself up and stood there.....I see walking in our near future.
He has a healthy appetite still and is built! He's 21 pounds already. :)
Dean had blond hair and still has beautiful storm grey eyes. I keep praying and hoping they stay grey. He loves to smile and laugh and flirt.
Dean has three teeth. His two top front teeth and bottom left tooth. Its adorable.
He absolutely loooves his Tanner. He follows him around and crawls on him and sits next him while he plays. Tanner acts like he gets annoyed but when Dean goes off and does his own thing Tanner comes and lays next to him or nudges him so he'll come play. Dean loves his sisters too, he thinks they are super funny. and of course he loves his daddy. he likes to sit in his lap while Brian does computer stuff. But he is definitely a momma's boy, everyone will tell you.....and I absolutely love it! I love that he HAS to be in the same room as me, that he wants to sit in his highchair while I cook. That he wants me to be on the floor with him while he plays, just in case he wants to show me something or crawl on me (I'm a fun jungle gym cause I've got padding) I love that when he see's me in the morning he will get a huge smile and then fall into the corner of his crib and be all shy. I love that he holds my figures while we are just sitting there because he's got to be touching me. I ache when I dont' get to be near him during the day and everything in the world will be better the minute I get him back with me.
Dean is ticklish on his back and neck and he does the same thing I do when he gets excited he puts his hands near his mouth...dont' ask me where that comes from. Its something I've always done.
Dean gets this really high pitched scream when he gets excited. Its hilarious and lately he's been doing this grunting thing when he things something is fun or somewhat funny.

I think that's about it for now. Absolutely love this boy and so very thankful Heavenly Father blessed us with him.

A Boy and his Dog

Dean and Tanner absolutely love each other. If you remember Tanner took to Dean right off the bat and laid down with him while I was on maternity leave. Tanner likes to go outside with him and walks around/over him when he's playing. He loves when Dean is eating, I'm convince Tanner thinks Dean is purposely giving him treats. ;) 

Well last week Tanner left for a breeding session and was gone for a week. We came home Monday, unloaded the car and let Tanner out of his crate. I had taken Dean out of his chair already and put him down to let him crawl around and Tanner came right in, went strait for Dean and laid right next to him. and there they sat for a good five minutes. Do you see Deans face? He is so excited to have his Tanner back!  I love it!

Sorry the pictures are such poor quality ....they are blown up from phone pics.

Water

What is the body made up of? Water
What cools us off?  Water
What cleans us and our things? Water
What quenches our thirst?  Water
What regulates our bodies systems? Water
What does our body crave when its starting to shut down?  Water
What is free? Water
Where can we find it? Everywhere


Man, God sure did plan that one out pretty well. :)   And the frequent trips the bathroom get my butt up and moving. Well played!